Posts by gav-admin

Low Self-esteem

Low Self-esteem... I’ve always struggled with low self-esteem and regularly felt down, often thinking anything negative that happened to me was because I’m a bad person who deserves it. In November 2017 my wife and I went for a 20-week scan for our 3rd baby, we happily discussed names on the way there and we wanted to find out the gender this time, we hadn’t when she was expecting our 2 boys. We got to the hospital and it was all routine but then the scan was taking ages, repeated measurements of the head, I knew something wasn’t right. Then
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Looking back over my minds shoulder

Looking back over my mind's shoulder **TRIGGER WARNING** narrative includes references to self-harm and suicide. The mental illness got stronger as I got older, as a kid it’s mental, just a fun game that made every day different, never the same, Yes, I was a loner in my perfect place Sometimes imagining I was in out of this space, Am I a cowboy with a stick gun I was mental, but it was just fun, They called me names, said it was weird but I was just being me so who cared, Sometimes the pain of being strange and the
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Bipolar

Bipolar My story is I found out I was bipolar 7/8 years ago I went through an extremely bad marriage, there was a lot of domestic violence and a lot of mental abuse we were together for 11 years I've got three beautiful daughters 18, 15 and 13 I am a single mum I take a lot of medication I am now stable bipolar. I thought I'd send you my story as I would like to help people like a friend does because the thing is with bipolar if you can do the head work with the medication it does
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Don’t Suffer in Silence…

Don't Suffer in Silence... I’ve always had a problem from a child being bullied but struggled, through never telling anybody.  It was hard, I came from a large strong family, so I felt I had to cope with this on my own.  It was not until I found out years ago, I had cognitive behavioural problems for which I had therapy for .  Last year I went through a period of feeling worthless, ugly and not looking at the world to be a good place to be.  I was not bothered about been here anymore, I struggled to cope and
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Poetry in motion…

unsplash-logoEduardo Olszewski #letsclearthecloud I was always different growing up, some could ask me how but I didn't have those answers. I started to develop panic attacks, from age seventeen, they then led into agoraphobia and I didn't want to leave my house or nothing.  All of a sudden one day the feelings stopped and I was back to living a normal life. Then again I fell back into the trap of having the same problems at the age of twenty one, twenty two/  I have now unfortunately developed anxiety again and agoraphobia, My verdict on this problem is this, we are not all the
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Very Weird…

unsplash-logoJason Leung I was 23 when things started getting very weird. I had had a happy childhood, did well at school and uni. I had a graduate job abroad when I started having strange thoughts and bizarre delusions. I couldn’t sleep and had endless energy. I never felt like eating, my weight had dropped to 6 stone. I was very confused. I remember looking at my face in a shop window and thinking to myself, I couldn't possibly go home like this! My family would be so upset and worried!  I saw a plane fly over and I wished I
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‘Man up’

unsplash-logoMarion Michele Living in a mining community we never talked about mental health and if we had a problem it would be just "Man Up" but in 2004 our lives changed forever. I didn't know anything about mental health at thirty years of age. I had my first ever panic attack after my wife went through a traumatic birth which I witnessed, thinking the love of my life was going to die.  My wife went on to have severe postnatal depression which, in hindsight, should have led to a stay in a mother and baby unit as she wasn’t safe
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Bipolar

unsplash-logoAlex Iby I suffer with severe bipolar disorder. I have suffered for years and in my early life it just seemed to my family I was just emotional. As my life went on, I went through 4 traumas that progressed my illness and escalated my condition rapidly ...an illness that was always there and my family ignored even after what happened to me. I don’t blame these 4 situations for my illness I believe I have always had this and the 4 situations that happened to me around the age of 12 was what fuelled my illness. As a bipolar
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My father passed away…

unsplash-logoi yunmai 7 years ago my father passed away, he had his highs and lows. Everyone loved his highs, he was funny and full of life, but then came the lows. During his passing he was in a depressed state, he turned his phone off as he usually did and by the time we got there it was too late. I was always told ‘your just like your father’ it was 3 years after his passing  (I was 38) that I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder. It was only because of this diagnosis that we realised my father had
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Racing motorcycles…

unsplash-logoGarry Neesam I’m a 53-year-old male.  All my life from a very young age I was different to most kids, very inward and the odd one out, back then I thought it was just me and the way I had been brought up. This went on until I was about 16 where drinking came a past time because it made me feel good and confident.  This stayed with me for many years and had lots of negative effects, failed business, and 2 failed relationships.  This pattern continued until October last year, as normal I woke up in the middle of
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