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Bipolar

unsplash-logoAlex Iby I suffer with severe bipolar disorder. I have suffered for years and in my early life it just seemed to my family I was just emotional. As my life went on, I went through 4 traumas that progressed my illness and escalated my condition rapidly ...an illness that was always there and my family ignored even after what happened to me. I don’t blame these 4 situations for my illness I believe I have always had this and the 4 situations that happened to me around the age of 12 was what fuelled my illness. As a bipolar
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My father passed away…

unsplash-logoi yunmai 7 years ago my father passed away, he had his highs and lows. Everyone loved his highs, he was funny and full of life, but then came the lows. During his passing he was in a depressed state, he turned his phone off as he usually did and by the time we got there it was too late. I was always told ‘your just like your father’ it was 3 years after his passing  (I was 38) that I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder. It was only because of this diagnosis that we realised my father had
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Racing motorcycles…

unsplash-logoGarry Neesam I’m a 53-year-old male.  All my life from a very young age I was different to most kids, very inward and the odd one out, back then I thought it was just me and the way I had been brought up. This went on until I was about 16 where drinking came a past time because it made me feel good and confident.  This stayed with me for many years and had lots of negative effects, failed business, and 2 failed relationships.  This pattern continued until October last year, as normal I woke up in the middle of
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Money cannot make you happy

unsplash-logolucas Favre I am 47 yrs old, and due to coming from a family of wealth, it meant I was shoved aside by my Parents, Boarding school and being brought up by Nanny Johns... It meant I felt very unloved, so depression set in at an early age.. Of course I was only about 10, so did not understand what I was experiencing. It was when one was older, that I started to realize I was different from my chums, as they were happy and outgoing little souls, and yet I was very withdrawn Once I got to around 18,
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Post #456

unsplash-logoKelly Sikkema This is a story about my sister. It started really when she was 11, getting bullied at school for being adopted, and back in 1982, there was no help for kids that were adopted, as it was classed as the norm, due to unmarried Mums, as it was such a shameful thing to be, hence why a lot of babes for adoption, and my Sis was one, at this time, I did not even know she existed? She was bullied like mad, so she told me, called all sorts, and really felt pushed out. By the time she
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Severe anxiety and depression

unsplash-logoTyler Nix I'm a 22 year old male. I have suffered from severe anxiety and depression since I was in school about 14, I see the world differently to others always have, feel different.  I look into things.  I tried to overdose at 16, it literally felt like there were demons inside me controlling my life, I felt so low.  It affected my life, opportunities in my teen years and still is. I’ve been involved with multiple counsellors, anxiety and depression places ever since (currently) I also started boxing at 17 to get my confidence up because going into adult
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Social Anxiety & Depression

From being a young child I had social anxiety and depression since my Dad left and my Grandad died I struggled in my teens too with suicidal thoughts and then got in the wrong crowd drinking smoking and eating junk and I got in a bad relationship which was abusive and violent.  I developed terrible bad panic attacks and I had to leave my full-time job and couldn’t cope.   I went back to my mum’s, but my siblings and some friends didn’t understand and thought I was over reacting or weird and I fell into a terrible depression and couldn’t
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A happily married mother of two…

I am 38yrs old and a happily married mother of two wonderful robust children and a totally amazing supporting husband. I have suffered from depression for 13yrs, it started when my eldest child was born in April 2005 with post-natal depression in which I was put on medication, my depression was kept under control with the meds and when we found out we were pregnant with our second child I was in a much better place mentally and came of my meds, sadly at the time my dad was rapidly going downhill after being diagnosed with asbestosis in 2005 and
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I will find a way to beat this anxiety…

Well, where do I begin? I'm a 25 year old male, who had everything a man could want. I was in a relationship with the love of my life, we were due to get married this year on the 18th August, and we also have a beautiful daughter together. The relationship wasn’t easy because myself, and my ex-partner either got on very well, or it would be really sour. It started getting to the point in which I'd rather be at work, than be home because of the arguing. It took me long enough to realise that I was the
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My story began in 1977…

My story began in 1977 when I was just 5 years old. I can recall the day very well when my Father returned home from work and lost his temper with me for letting my pet escape from its cage, said pet was found safe and well, unfortunately the same could not be said for me.  My father beckoned me over to him and broke a wooden broom across the front of my right leg hurting me badly in the process.  Over the years that followed I suffered terrible physical and emotional abuse at the hands of my father who was a very
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